Day 29. The mange

Wednesday

WCC: 0.6

Neut: 0.3

Hb: 102

Platelets: 18

Weight: 63.4kg

Yesterday I was in such a good mood, and had a 'busy' day in here. Today, not so much on either account.

Overall, feeling better, but incredibly tired. It's 3.40 in the afternoon and I am posting early, in the hope I can finally try and get some sleep. I have tried most of the day, but no success as yet.

Woke at 5.00am and then 6.00am started Lasix - so no sleep after that as peeing all the time. All I wanted to do was to fall back asleep, but decided it's pointless because as soon as I do, I'm waking up heading back into the bathroom. But I wasn't complaining as I am so happy that some of this fluid is going. My abdomen feels better today, I am not coughing as much - which is an indication that fluid is reducing around my lungs & other organs are emerging from the mush again. Dr's came by - didn't really get anything more from them today. The fact neutrophils have not gone up is not a bad thing, but an upward trend is needed before they are going to send me home - they are still talking about them being over 1 before I leave!

However, they are cutting back on some of the antibiotics, so one by one hopefully I'll be off the IV in the next day or 2.

So, they dangled going home in front of me, but it feels like it's been moved to the side at the moment - so feeling a bit flat with that.

Also, I look like a stray dog with mange. This is the look I was dreading, and I think it's had a much bigger impact on me than I thought it would after shaving my head etc. Worked out shaving my head for a cause - be it raising funds or for feeling empowered - into a short crew cut is a much different feeling to large patches now bald and others still with hair. I've asked Anth to bring the clippers in tomorrow and just cut if off - that feels like less torture than seeing the patchy scalp.

I wasn't so keen to have this photo taken today - and that was this morning, so more has gone by now.

So tomorrow I'll just get it done in one go, and then beanies and scarves it will be!

An early night tonight and a better mood tomorrow!